I am swirling
Twirling
Lost
Tossed in the waves
Of my reality
The actuality
That I created
Destruction of my own design
The stars didn’t align
Like I’d hoped
Nothing will ever feel
Okay again
Not even playing pretend
Will make this cruel joke
Speed to the punch line
I act like dying
Isn’t something that terrifies me
And that being loved
Isn’t what inspires me
To keep on going
When there seems no purpose
May the powers that be
Have pity
On my soul
I may not be whole
But what I am I have struggled for
And you will regret underestimating
What I bring to the table
You think your compassion
Continues to enable
Me
But it is the key in the ignition
Of my ambition
I was born incomplete
But I learned to make due
I found external forces
To help me get through
You are crippled
And stunted
By your inability
To confront the
Idea that I might be on to something
There is one thing
You have taught me
That sometimes
With some people
Doing the right thing
Will only make them try to hurt you more
And sometimes you have to fight dirty
To show that your worthy
Of a little respect .
