What a chaotic design I am
Like someone took 3 different puzzles and forced the pieces
Together all wrong
I knew all along that I was different
But the mess inside my head
Is spilling out onto the floor of my room
And the counters of my kitchen
The disarray shouts at me from behind my closet doors
Avoid avoid avoid
I am frayed at the edges and coming undone
The faster I unravel the faster I run
In the opposite direction
You can’t catch me
BecAuse I’m not really here
I’ve already moved on
To the next moment
The next cigarette
Tie that tournaquette
around my bleeding
Heart
these emotions have me raw and aching
They say happiness is mine for
The taking
Willingness
Mindfulness
The keys for
The making
Of a healthy me
But let’s face it I’m mired so deep
All these bad habits I could
Do in my sleep
What is the risk if I am willing?
