Why do I feel more appreciated
When my body is small
Why does it seem like the end- all -be- all
Revolves
Around the amount of space that I take up
I have been big
& I have been light
Why is it assumed
Skinny = healthy
I feel the shift in their attitudes towards me
As I drop pounds the way I drop my self respect
For your approval
I get compliments now
& smiles Everywhere I go
I was beautiful before too
That body brought me here
Why do I have to fear
Food
Fat isn’t a fate worse then death!
Dangerous by kardinal official
Played background music to my adolescence
We are a generation of women who long to be beautiful AND desired
My boots with the fur – have long been retired
Your validation is NO LONGER required
I am only a girl
Who changes sizes like shoes
& I feel my insignificance
How are we all so indifferent
My indignation rises
With every cat call and compliment
Why does he comment
On my body like it’s produce
Or a car, driving down the street
I imagine myself sweep
All the broken pieces of the different versions of myself
That I shattered and left behind
I strive daily
To take up as much space as I can find
Maybe I can give some of mine
To someone who hasn’t found theirs, yet
