I worked my SO hard
I’m not going to lie,
I did everything in my power
just to get high.
A force to be reckoned with:
The kind made of desperation, self loathing
and hard headed stubbornness.
Now as i begin to try
I realize there is only one way to come out alive –
and not just alive,
but thriving and soaring and HAPPY,
really genuinely happy!
The answer doesn’t lie, as one would assume
In life’s fields as an epic battle
the clash of swords or demons teeth.
The answer lies in the sweet surrender
found only in humility.
I am that old dog, struggling to learn new tricks
and when your fists
have been clenched for so long
it feels almost wrong to
Baptize yourself in splendour
As hard as I fought to use
Is as hard as I’ll fight to surrender.