How do I not praise God
For the carryings on
Inside my brain
In the absence of pain
There is joy
I speak often of bursting at the seams
And crashing into pieces
And I must seek these familiar adjectives once again
In my pursuit to take a verbal screenshot
Of this happiness
Joy
Jubilation
That leaks from me
At all my seams
I am saturated
Free
Amazed at my bodies
Ability
To heal and grow and learn and change
Redemption
Absolution
Recovery
Are real
These things are possible
I didn’t choose to heal
I gave up many times
And yet here I remain
I feel like the cat
Who keeps coming back
But stronger and better
And smarter
And loved
I could not save myself
I could not forgive myself
And my faith is just a mustard seed
I am learning to be humble
And let him lead
All that was impossible
Has come to be
And the bible vs comes to memory
I can do all things
Through him who strengthens me !
