My roommate
Is of the intolerable sort
Never doing dishes
And rent money always falling short
Abort abort abort
Can you do that at 28 years
I’m pro choice
And pro use your voice
But I think it’s to late
For fucks sake
Who’s even writing this shit?
I give you no stars
Fast lane fast cars
Long lines
And dive bars
Motorcars, guitars
Writing memoirs
Of a prodigal daughter
And I walk
Like a lamb to the slaughter
The curtain falls
I wish it all
Was just a movie
I could hit pause
Or power
Or fuck it hit the plug
Smash the tv
Never again
Will I be consumed
By such evil
Believe it
This is a new leaf
That I have turned
That same intolerable roommate
Left water by my bed
And washed my hair
And took my make up off
When I didn’t even care
When I can’t stand myself
I split
Into my roommate and me
It’s a way for me, you seeÂ
To process the hurt
I’m inflicting on myself
How else do you process
Such a detriment to ones health
The threat is me
Eradicate
Destroy
It’s a trap
It’s a ploy
Your a queen of sweet and coy
But you will not fool me again
I am hard to live with
And even harder to please
So many hang ups
So many needs
Im learning to love
To forgive and to see
The good and the bad
As it comes and it leavesÂ
I can’t quit or evict ,
Or pretend to not exist
So I must face and live and choose to forgive
Face the music
Face the madness
Face the pain and find the happiness
I hope?
I continue to persistÂ
Resist
And cope!
This isn’t the end
I get to decide
If I will thrive
Not just live and die.