I used to be a girl
Who knew who she was
And what she brought to the table
Brave and capable
Imagine if you are able
A different girl
In a different time
When the days didn’t blur
Into when I last had a line
People change all the time
But I notice the sun is there sometimes
And then it’s gone
And when this has happened several times that means several days
Have happened along
I fly so high
Higher than a thousand of the highest kites to kiss the skies
Could ever fly
But I fall SO fast
I plummet like
A rock
Tick tock
I hear a constant clock
Reminding me that this too will end
And every time
I lose a little more
Of my very core
I abhor the parts of myself
I cannot understand
I will not reconcile with the part of me
That is so self destructive
hate is wrong
But I cannot satiate this angry monster
Inside me
how can I forgive
The burned bridges
The empty promises
The things I’ve caused myself to lose
And the horrible horrible scars
All over my skin
As damaged as the part within.
