This poem was also written a few years ago and I ache for my all that was and I am so thankful for the love, compassion and grace I have been blessed by and allowed to experience.
There is hope in the darkest places.
For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you a hope and a Future!
Jeremiah 29:11
I cannot find the words
To say what I want to say
To set free this feeling boiling & frothing inside me
Expanding, Exploding
Desperate to escape!
Growing heavier with every hour
I am unable to find the words
That would fit like a key
To unlock this dark tangled mess
Living inside of me
I am unable to express
This confusion
& hatred.
This d e s p e r a t e need to be loved
to be needed
to be wanted
to be comforted
& understood
Like a waterfall I want these feelings to come crashing out
To break to pieces on the rocks below
To turn to mist and disappear
Or maybe for me to just not exist
At all.