Here I go again
Round and round
Up and down
My sadness is heavy
And I am sinking
Drinking
Falling
Drowning
And then
I am laughing
Bubbles of laughter bursting
From my lips
It tickles
And I cannot stop
It’s as if my heart
Is filled with helium
And it soars inside my chest
I am as helpless
As you are
Watching me fly and crash
A thousand times
In ten minutes
And every agonizing minute
Feels absolutely real
How can I heal ?
When I swing from high to low
Like the pendulum on a clock
I am a time bomb ticking
And every tick tock
Brings me closer to detonation
The emotional disregulation as explosiveÂ
As pressurized gas
The one thing I can count on
Is that emotions never lasts
