A Lament

There Are some days 

Where my hummingbird thoughts 

Are restless and race 

They flutter and pace 

Where absolute inner peace 

Is just out of my 

Reach 

On these days 

I pray harder 

I make up for my pain 

By increasing my ardor

I close my eyes 

And imagine heaven 

In all

Of its splendour 

Pearly gates and a love so tender 

It washes away every last bit of doubt 

And sin 

And shame 

Take my sadness 

Take my pain 

Take my madness 

Make me sane 

By the blood of Christ 

Take me home 

I don’t anymore want 

To feel alone.